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Ugh

Posted on: Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Mood: Not interested
Music: The Fan-Hrrrrrrrmmmmmmmmm

Hey Deirds, so I cannot/do not want to go to sleep and I really should.  I called in sick today and used my time off for absolutely nothing except for eating oatmeal raisin cookies that I made last night (and they are delicious, thank you very much) and playing Halo 2 (at least I finished it today).  I guess I was feeling ok today (but fat) and I justified my lack of motivation by convincing myself that I’m still recovering from my 7.7 mile hike (and accompanying ginormous blisters) at Elk Meadow Open Space on Saturday.  That was a weird day.  I’m glad I went and it was fun-ish, but it’s like I was channeling super in-shape hiker girl or something…like it was something I had to do.  Exercise has been feeling like that a lot lately…like it keeps the voices quiet and shoos away the demons for an afternoon.  But I was so tired and borderline hypothermic at the end of it.  When I got home that night (and after the usual Saturday night bath routine) I ordered a medium pizza and ate most of it.  See you later, chance to lose weight!  Sayonara, self-control!  Good day, crumbling in the face of adversity!  Oh whatever…like it matters.  That hike prolly burned like 7000 calories, so it’s most likely a break-even proposition.  Seriously though, despite the soaking wetness, exhaustion, and pre-hypothermia I had a pretty good time…like I picked some flowers and sang along to the iPod on the last couple of miles.  If only life were as easy as a summertime hike in the mountains.

I’m really down on transition right now and I think it has to do with my money problems.  Like my credit card is maxed out and I only have this paycheck to live on (and pay all of my others bills with) until next month.  Plus, I made an electrolysis appointment and I have an appointment with Dr. S scheduled…I’m going to be canceling that.  It’s like all of the progress I’ve made is gone (or seems to be) after one bad day.  Ugh.  Hopefully work will be better tomorrow…and I have a three day weekend coming up starting Friday.  Another hike might be in order.

XOXO,

Anna

p.s.  Hey Deirds, did you notice that I signed my name Anna?  That’s because I pretty sure that that’s the name I’m going to be using.  I’ve been rolling it around in my head for the past couple of weeks and it seems to fit really well.  Now if I could only figure out how to write it in cursive!

p.p.s.  Oh, in case you were wondering, no, Cassy has not written me back yet.  I sent her her check on Thursday and still nothing.  I miss her so much and…I…I don’t know…I just want us to be friends.  It’s prolly not true, but it kills me to think that she thinks I’m a freak and that’s why she can’t bear to be associated with me any more.  Like, my money problems would pretty much be over if I sold her engagement ring but I just can’t bring myself to do that.  I keep thinking that I’ll be able to give it back to her one day.  Right now though, that does not seem like a probable outcome.

p.p.p.s.  Should I be posting my better emails in here?

p.p.p.p.s.  Really?  p.p.p.p.s?

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